The Most Terrible Night Before The Most Beautiful Breaking Dawn.

Sometimes we get stuck on the same thing. Often this is called old love. We are experiencing very much, we think very much and it seems to us that worse than the gap can not be. I'm here that I noticed: in moments when we are in bad shape, fate gives us indulgence, for example such as a call from your former or something else, and we break off anchors and rush into the distemper from which they fled, because there, as It seems easier for us, there's a favorite. I remember myself, I forgot about everything, about how I promised myself that I would never again be with this person, that I would answer him with the same selfishness. But if you call him, I drop what I find so difficult to measure, to keep away from him from a distance. The reason is a terrible dependence and in the idealization that I built around it. To look into the eyes of the man you created and not see anything around him except it is much easier than to inspire yourself that there are other joys, but here comes the climax, I stop acting, make decisions, make elections. My feelings did everything for me, and I clung to him like a lifebuoy. The bottom line is that you resort to it, you are happy, you are together, you are again being brought into a world where you and he are, and everything else does not matter. And then the fatal blow of fate. Something can happen: he has another, or you just bored him, but the fact that he refused from you. And you think, there can not be any worse. Maybe if you go again to save yourself in his arms. You see, life specifically gives us such pain that you come to your senses and realize that you have ceased to live without the help of a loved one. I, I confess, is very weak in this respect, I have attacked the same rake a thousand times, I returned to it again and again. But you need to understand that this way this routine will not end. I understand that no person wants to do what he does not want to do. But in fact you never will feel, how it perfectly to grow fond of an unloved business if you do not plunge into it with a head. With him you exist for yourself and for him, but life "shoves" you so that you turn around, look at people, appreciate the events and understand that there are many other delights. When you make a decision, you live, move, and movement is life. If it's hard for you, do not get hung up on this, you know why? Because the most terrible night before the most beautiful dawn. You will understand this when you make a choice and follow these paths. God will lead you to a path that you built for yourself, of which you dreamed, which cost you a lot. I can tell you, I did not have the courage to part with him, but apparently God gave me a chance and sin not to use it. A loved one threw me on the day when I myself wanted to arrange all the points. And I considered it a great gift from above. My task is not to get out of this way, which makes it difficult for me to go, it's complicated, but I desperately try to calm my heart when I see it online and that to overcome my fear I long and stubbornly looked at his miniature photos in contact, That this is just a picture, there is nothing terrible in this, and you know what, I did it. The excitement disappeared, and I realized that he is one of the few on my list of people who are online, no more. It's simple, but it's worth it, it's worth the moment when you will be met by a beautiful dawn.